We are in Pennsylvania. People here have an accent I’ve never heard before but it is sweet ! I have also learned that in Pennsylvania, they have a “Hunting Day” ! The day hunting opens, kids do not go to school. People go hunting! Even ladies! The only time I’ve seen guns during my entire life in Cameroon was either in the pocket of the uniform of a police officer or during the military parade organized for the celebration of Cameroon’s independence. But here, even ladies know guns! I talked with a lady and she was matter-of-factly describing how good she is with guns. Oh my! I got some chills!
It was a long but very fruitful day! It is almost midnight. I am in a nice and lovely bedroom. My husband is still in a meeting with a pastor and my mom is already asleep. My body is ready to crash but my brain is speeding. WOW! Tomorrow morning, I will officially be a new member of the Wycliffe!
Me, once full of ambition and of a fiery desire to succeed as a medical doctor, have forever turned my back to a career in medicine in my dear home country! Tomorrow, I will definitely embrace a new mission, the mission of a “missionary doctor.” No turning back!
I cannot sleep. I have to write…
What do I know about missions? Am I really wise? Am I really going the right direction? I hold my head in my hand and I review these past years lived in the jungle. I am watching a movie with my mind as the screen and my memory as the DVD player.
At the end of the movie, here’s what I can say I know…
- I know missions are hard.
- I know missions don’t make you rich!
- I know that you must rely on God to take care of you.
- I know that you work harder than in your home country but you get less money.
- I know that you will pour out your heart to care for locals but will be criticized.
- I know that most of the locals with whom you work won’t understand you.
- I know that the people praying and caring for you from a distance will try to imagine what you endure everyday but they will not really understand.
- I know that you work with a lot of people. You meet a lot of people. You care for a lot of people. But still you can be lonely.
- I know that once you hear God’s call, you can’t stop the fire that starts burning.
- I know that you may feel beaten and exhausted but you can’t give up.
- I know there are days you come home dancing, but other days you will come home crying!
I’ve served two years now at the Bongolo hospital in Gabon, Africa. I was supporting my husband and taking care of him. I was “the wife of a missionary.”
Now, tomorrow morning, I will be “a missionary” who is a wife to a missionary.
I have prayed about it. I have thought about it. A lot of things are going to change in my life. But now I’m ready to join my husband and say “Here am I, Lord, send me!”
On your marks! get set! GO!!!!!!!